Tuesday, December 6, 2011

gumption

Ever seen the movie The Holiday?

I love it... honestly... It's one of my favorite movies... ever. Not so much because of Cameron Diaz's character... But because of  Kate Winslet's character, Iris.

In the movie... She realizes that she has... Gumption...

Then the wonderful Hans Zimmer put music to the movie... and that's where I fell in love...

Yes.. the song Gumption has been on my sidebar for quite some time... (you can play it now... and don't worry it's free)  And I'm putting it at the top for today... because... I need it.

This morning I woke up at about 3 am... I had to... ahem... pee. (sorry grandma... what can I say... I'm honest :) he he)

So I stood up... and immediately... I fell to the floor... I collapsed. I crawled to to the bathroom, begrudgingly. Then... I tried to stand up... whack... on the floor.

Shoot... this is getting worse...

I crawled back to my bedroom... and pulled myself into bed. Then I tried to sleep for about 2 hours. Then, oh... that stupid bladder called again, I decided that my one bruise was enough and I called my mom (mmk... I'm just going to give a basket of flowers to the inventor of cell phones...)

"mom... I need help... I have to go to the bathroom"

Now... there is nothing... nothing more humiliating than being 24 and having to have your mom help you go "potty".

She groggily came over, I explained what had  happened earlier, then she helped me drag my legs into the bathroom. She then asked when I was going to call my boss to tell her I wasn't coming in... I told her at 7... cause it was only 5:45.

Later she helped me back into bed. I called my boss... left a voicemail... texted my coworker and told her I wouldn't be in. Then went to sleep till the neuro's office opened.

"Hi I need to leave a message for the Doctor."

"mmmk, I'm ready"

I explained to her what happened... then she quickly said...

"this isn't a leave a message for your doctor moment... this is a you need to be seen today moment... Can you come in at 3:15?"

"I'll be there."

So... now.. I've listened to Gumption by Hans Zimmer 13 times... And I think it's helping... Hopefully.. I'll be able to get downstairs... without breaking my neck... And hopefully the doctor can give me something to help the weakness... even if it is a cane or a walker.

I can't believe  don't want to believe I just said that.

So please I ask that you pray for me this afternoon... Give the Doctor wisdom... and Give me the gumption to make it. If you feel like it... please ask your friends, family, and neighbors to pray for me ... you can share my blog with them... I need all the prayer I can get.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

xoxo- me

1 comment:

Kathleen said...

I've been praying since I saw something at noon about seeing the dr at 3:15 pm.

Please be sure to update us on the results of the dr visit.

Hang in there.