Monday, September 19, 2011

You have my attention now.

You've been chasing me. 
You've been calling my name. 
But I have a hard time listening. 
I told my mom this morning about how I was anxious. 
I didn't want tomorrow to come... but I also wanted it so badly.
You prepared me for this illness... 
This was all in Your plans. 
Even as hard as it has been for me... You know exactly how much I can take. 
You helped me study Your word... hide it in my heart. 
You've told me not to be anxious about anything... 
But, as You know (and only You really know) I'm not very good at listening.
My hands gripped the steering wheel tight this morning as I got in my car.
I wasn't sure I would make it through my day.
I was anxious. 
But You knew... You knew exactly what to give me. 
As I was stopped at the first stoplight before I got on the freeway...
You had this waiting... for me. 
You have my attention now... 
Oh Rachel... Don't be anxious for anything. But in everything
through prayer and supplications. Let your requests be made known to God.
I didn't need a still small voice today... I wouldn't have listened...
I needed a billboard. Or maybe just a license plate.
Just to remind me... 
That Your peace will guard my heart. 
And I need to think on good things. 
Things that are worthy of praise. 
Oh Lord. You are good all the time. 
And I know....
You hold my heart. 
So hold it tightly My King. 
Don't listen to me when I think I can do it on my own.
I need you. 
Just please... I pray... hold my heart tomorrow. 
And guide me through this Deep Valley.


Kathleen said...

I'm praying for you...for strength, courage, peace, and joy.

love you!

Crysti & Jerome said...

I love you. And I'm sending you my big bear hug...though mine is nothing compared to Jesus'.