My heart is anxious though. I can't rest in the peace this gorgeous morning. Today I'll find out if I have the West Nile virus. I wish I could just lay here, in my beautiful white sheets with pink embroidery on the top and let the day pass by. Today I don't want to go in to the doctors, I don't want to be told everything is clear. Today... I want my answer... I need my answer... I want to get back to living. I want to feel... good.
Today I want to walk out of this deep valley and walk up to the top of the mountain, ok... it doesn't even have to be the highest peak... It can be a little hill. I just want to see the view, have a little peek down into the valley. I want to see the blessings and be able to appreciate the struggles that I have had while climbing up. I want to know that there is a reason... a diagnosis.
Please Lord Please... let it be today...
P.S. click play on the sidebar... I picked this song for today.